Weird sentiment in my mind. Regarding the job and home, I can maybe understand the argument. Regarding my friends, I feel that their randomness (or "defaultness

Weird sentiment in my mind. Regarding the job and home, I can maybe understand the argument. Regarding my friends, I feel that their randomness (or "defaultness") is an incredible miracle. I am not social and I have never exactly had a high self esteem. The fact that I do have a small, extremely close group of friends, with a wider pool of people I know casually, is proof to me that I am not only incredibly lucky, but also that at least someone sees me as valuable. The idea that I could create something better by myself seems not only "out of the question", but arrogant and absurd. Of course, the author might say I played right into what he wrote, but it really comes down to a matter of belief, doesn't it?