I have aphantasia (or am on the spectrum) and my mind can only see in "concepts" and flashes of light. I can't think of a banana and "see" it. The closest i get

I have aphantasia (or am on the spectrum) and my mind can only see in "concepts" and flashes of light. I can't think of a banana and "see" it. The closest i get to visualization is recalling photographic snapshots of things but only if i saw a photo of it once. One interesting aspect are psychedelics. I only get open-eye visuals but almost no closed-eye effects except for light flashes (black & white, no imagery), even on high doses of LSD/Mushrooms. But i do get dream-like, very abstract 'recreations' which are hard to describe. I get to relive memories etc, just not see them. But, using DMT - i visualize like crazy with abstract / geometric colorful patterns. And even when totally sober, i sometimes dream/recall those patterns during sleep, which wakes me up immediately because it's so overwhelming compared to my dull normal dreams. This makes me think that i actually can visualize, i just block it out (i'm a very headstrong/rational person) and i'm working with meditation techniques to open the gate (or chakra, if you're esoterically inclined) permanently, so far unsuccesfully. I do think that more research here would be great as i'm convinced it also impacts creativity and thinking patterns. For example, my strong creativity outlet is music; visual art is foreign to me.