I would not trust an online group to form an opinion what is 'normal' and what is not. An online group is formed of people who were incentivized to join that di

I would not trust an online group to form an opinion what is 'normal' and what is not. An online group is formed of people who were incentivized to join that discussion because it appealed to their personality. There are probably at least 500 million english speakers on the internet. This means there can be subgroups for all sorts of fringe things that have thousands of members, yet present a tiny fraction of the population. Most of all, the groups you visit have people who have same types of personalities as you. Hence, you don't know whether the opinions you get are an overall average, or totally uncommon. What I mean by this - it's great you are wondering how to to live your life so it' fullfilling - but an online group is not necessarily the best place to gauge the quality of your life in the general context as there is no single optimum for human experience as people are very different. And some people learn to cherish the things that make their life painfull. And some people have toxic personalities yet are terribly good at persuading others. Social proof is an immensly powerfull force yet it is easily manufactured in this day an age. That said, many have adviced trying some group sport and I think that's a great advice. You don't need to like it, and can the stop the experience, but there is no way to know except by trying. It's great you are partaking in art. This already gives you a wider context than just your technical interests. While wondering how to live your life, you might enjoy reading biographies of technical people. I would warmly recommend Walter Isaacsons magnificient books- Innovators, Leonardo da Vinci, Jobs, Einstein and Benjamin Franklins biographies give a vivid and human description how other technical people with artistic qualities lived their life. You don't know what your life will be like, and you are a being of your own, but often peoples lives have more things in common than not - even across centuries.