Bad at math? My college roommate went to the public school in my town. I went to the catholic school. He learned calc 1 and calc 2 before college. I had 2 week

Bad at math? My college roommate went to the public school in my town. I went to the catholic school. He learned calc 1 and calc 2 before college. I had 2 weeks of trig. We were both math majors. He breezed through calc. I got a D in calc1, 2, and 3. I took the classes a second time. Am I bad at math? Absolutely. Did I give up? No. I have a math degree and a comp. sci. degree. I've been a programmer for nearly 50 years. I have to read a math paper 3 times before I "get it". I have to read and write programs in a new paradigm (e.g. haskell and functional programming) before I "get it". I have to watch videos. What seems to take other people minutes can cost me days of effort. I read tech books every day. Every day for 50 years amounts to a lot of work. STEM didn't lose you. You gave up. You're going to live another 50 years. You can be in STEM. Don't give up.