Programming is weird. The better I get through experience and painful failure, the more I have tool anxiety. It starts with using a package for everything, now

Programming is weird. The better I get through experience and painful failure, the more I have tool anxiety. It starts with using a package for everything, now I fear updating my database drivers which tend to be the only code outside the standard lib I use. I have way more fear about exceptions and robustness. Every time I learn something hard ish like recursion I get worse for a while trying to use it all over the place. Then you learn the flaws. Now I feel like I spend all my time data modeling and liberally profiling and logging stuff, the code slinging itself barely takes time at all so I forget how much I've learned.