Is it possible that the anger you are experiencing is due to a fear that you have no other skills you can rely upon other than programming? Maybe you feel press

Is it possible that the anger you are experiencing is due to a fear that you have no other skills you can rely upon other than programming? Maybe you feel pressured to only express your creativity and intellect through programming. Worth considering. You're probably only a few small adjustments to your goals away from being happier. P.S. If you're putting in the time, you're probably getting better - plus, you are likely a good judge of whether or not you have actually wasted time.