I admit my historical views are (or was?) extremely skewed, flawed and uninformed, I'm never proud of that, but I will never hate myself for it too since those

I admit my historical views are (or was?) extremely skewed, flawed and uninformed, I'm never proud of that, but I will never hate myself for it too since those are what Chinese textbooks and society taught me since I'm born. I do regret that I came to realize it a bit late in my life tho, but that's what life is right?