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> at which point a boatload of repressed childhood trauma began surfacing. Can you describe this? How did they surface, how were you able to identify the repre
by thoughtexplorer 8y ago
> at which point a boatload of repressed childhood trauma began surfacing.
Can you describe this? How did they surface, how were you able to identify the repressed trauma?
- mindgam3 8y agoA lot was through dreams, which I began writing down in my twenties when I got fairly fascinated with lucid dreaming. Other times there were specific memories of abuse that popped into my head after not having conscious access to them since childhood. A strange sensation, like recovering a lost piece of my identity. I also greatly benefited from keeping an online searchable journal for years where I would record all of these stray memories and thoughts, even the ones I couldn’t make sense of at the time. Later on when I had more pieces of the puzzle I could refer to these notes and understand what my unconscious had been trying to tell me all along.
- sibeliuss 8y agoDo you think psychedelic use had any role in helping facilitate your awareness?
- mindgam3 8y agoYes. Extremely useful for undoing the effects of conditioning. For severe cases I would say it’s almost indispensable. However, I would strongly recommend proceeding with more caution than I did. That means taking psychedelics in a safe space with a clear medicinal intent and with a trusted guide, as opposed to rolling the dice by taking them casually or recreationally. You want to be 100% safe when your demons finally come out of hiding to reveal themselves to you, otherwise you can harm yourself in the process of trying to heal yourself. Safety third, that’s what I learned at burning man.
- simonsaidit 8y agoI made my own Changa to handle my own severe stress causing tinnitus so I could barely hear which it took away with one trip and also made me quit a 20 years heavy weed smoking. Gave it to others with the same benefit.. some even told me it stopped them from being suicidal or saved their marriage.my variant will often be memories and real life visions. Friend revealed a sexual abuse he had experienced as a kid that came back to him and explains why he has issues with relationships and religion and only able to deal with it now after his trip.
- gameswithgo 8y agohow do you know these memories are real?
- boomboomsubban 8y agoDoes it matter? Presumably the memories were troubling and addressing them helped their wellbeing.
- S-E-P 8y agoOh it does. I've met people who thought dead relatives came back to punish them. That's a bit far.
- boomboomsubban 8y agoIf they dealt with that fake memory and left better, I still don't see why it mattered. Though, those sound more like hallucinations or delusions than a false memory.
- S-E-P 8y agoIn the short term it's not very damaging, but it will cripple them later in life as false memories can very well damage a persons reputation. If you go out to dinner with some lovely individual who believes their dead great aunt talked to them on one or more occasions, would you really go out with that person a second time?
- boomboomsubban 8y agoPeople have all sorts of crazy sounding stories, partially because so many of our memories are fake, and it doesn't cause huge issues. And if they can't realize that their problems were impacting their memories I doubt they're truly over them.
- mindgam3 8y agoBecause I was able to cross check them with legal filings made during my parents’ divorce proceedings. I have also obtained documentation of similar instances of abuse in previous generations on both sides of my family. So at some point the whole “your memories aren’t real” attack starts to fall apart and ultimately be revealed as more gaslighting. I encourage you to use more caution the next time you question an abuse survivor.
- rustcharm 8y agoAnd how do we know the "repressed trauma" wasn't invented between the therapist and the patient?