First, How is that you believe "the professors themselves dont know anything" while at the same time your "grades were horrible". The question is not to pick o

First, How is that you believe "the professors themselves dont know anything" while at the same time your "grades were horrible". The question is not to pick on you, but rather I really just don't understand. Aren't the professors the one's grading you? If they are giving you poor grades, would that not indicate they know many things while you do not? Onwards, in my opinion, I think you're pretty selfish. And that's ok, we are all more selfish than we realize. We've all been caught up in ourselves to the point we become really self critical. I hate to sound cheesy by quoting JFK - and I'm not American, but he said it brilliantly: "... ask not what your country can do for you — ask what you can do for your country." Not to say I want you to help your country, specifically, but rather it might be worth choosing to spend your time finding other people who are far worse off than you, then direct your efforts into helping them. I think you'll discover more about yourself in the process, maybe find your true identity and become more than someone who's overly self-concerned. Also, maybe to help...: I travelled a lot growing up. I did notice one peculiar thing in my travels. Often I'd move to a new school, and fit right in. From school to school the crowds I'd fit in with would be different. Sometimes I'd fit in with the jocks, other times I fit with the nerds. Very rarely, only one time in fact, I found myself not fitting in with anyone.... and boy that was a doozy. It was like someone reached down from the heavens a decided to destroy my very identity... I was starting to think like you, but then I moved. So maybe you're actually in one of these black hole pockets where you truly are surrounded by all the wrong people, all the wrong things. I'm not religious, but maybe the heavens are reaching down to you and saying - you're not where you should be.