I do exactly the same thing. When I was younger they were more confrontational conversations that I fantasized about, but these days I find myself trying to fin

I do exactly the same thing. When I was younger they were more confrontational conversations that I fantasized about, but these days I find myself trying to find the right words and phrases to express concepts I'm preoccupied with. I don't do it on purpose but once I recognized it I realized that I'm able to find the words I'm looking for in conversation with much more ease.