I believe you may be overthinking it and that is taking its toll on you. You don't know what you expect and you're making judgement based on what you're observi

I believe you may be overthinking it and that is taking its toll on you. You don't know what you expect and you're making judgement based on what you're observing your colleagues do. Here is my advice to you: Step 1) Get a mentor. Someone who's been there for a while and get how the system (both people and machines) work and can provide guidance and point you in the right direction when they're stuck. Make good use of the time they give you and use every opportunity to thank them. Most bigCorp have some sort of mentoring program in place. If no formal mentoring program, ask your boss or your boss' boss for help in finding a mentor. Step 2) Befriend your teammates. Forget about all the technical mumbo-jumbo and try to get to know them as human beings. Ask about things they do outside work, weekend, music they listen to, things they are passionate about. Don't force it though. Be friendly and have as a goal to build a connection with these people. Step 3) Befriend people that sit in your close proximity (and are not part of your team). Having someone to chat about work related issues in the context that you're not going get judged for your actual work is again worth its weight in gold. Be curious about other people and share what you're passionate about. It does not have to be super-long boring. You just need to find one other person that really likes you to bootstrap you in the social environment Step 4) Your boss. Figure out how to make your boss successful. No, I'm not joking. Your relationship with your immediate boss is going to make or brake your experience there. Constantly ask for feedback and offer to offload your boss on various things if you have the ability to actually deliver. Don't be a kiss-ass, but do your absolute best to make your boss successful. Closing words: working at a big corporation can be a daunting experience at first. It's going to be a while for you to figure out how internal tooling and systems work. 3-6 months is not unheard off when it comes to ramp-up time. What you want to do is constantly ask questions and learn how that shit works. Invest the time (and slack) you are give now to seed your future growth. Also invest building connections with other people and discussing things that currently challenge you with them - don't be afraid to be vulnerable and admit when you don't know something. Most people are nice and actually try to help you if they can help you and are worth their effort (in the sense that they're not gonna explain the same thing 10 times to you if you don't put any effort into it, but they will explain something to you if it means that next time you'll do it on your own without bothering them). Forget about pride. Be humble and use your "beginner's mind" to your advantage. In the grand scheme of things we are all impostors.