> I’m not a collaborator; I’m a recluse. > What do I do? How do I get better? What is this "better" you speak of? Sounds like you know yourself well enough. G

> I’m not a collaborator; I’m a recluse. > What do I do? How do I get better? What is this "better" you speak of? Sounds like you know yourself well enough. Get a different job. Bigco is not for you. Even once you get familiar with the environment (it will take time, just don't stress about it) and can concentrate on doing your job and not HOW to do your job (if that makes sense), you will still fail at bigco and FA*G (I don't include N). With your personality makeup you are not going to be successful at performance review. I would even say put in a year to not be a hopper, but it doesn't sound like you will do well and 1 year doesn't look good either. With just 1 month you can easily just not put it on your resume at all. The other commentors are replying as if you are they. But you are you. Know thyself. If you were first year out of school I might answer differently but you are old and experienced enough to know what works for you. If at this age you don't even know how to approach being a social animal ... work the way that makes the most of your own skills and personality. This doesn't sound like normal first month anxiety to me.