Here's some scattershot hopefully-positivity. Keep in mind that a lot of these companies are good at hiring for potential, not for an immediate burst of produc

Here's some scattershot hopefully-positivity. Keep in mind that a lot of these companies are good at hiring for potential, not for an immediate burst of productivity. You are supposed to have time to figure out how to fit in and how to work with other people in your new environment. A solid first step in "getting better" is allowing yourself space to not be as good as you want to be, yet. You don't have to be a copy of your coworkers. Reaching out to people is something you can learn. It's a skill you may have to explicitly practice, but you can learn it. Make yourself do it at least once a day (more if you feel up to it!), and explicitly congratulate yourself when you actually do. I think it's worth pointing out that your coworkers may rarely hear you making mistakes or misunderstanding anything, and might see you just as you see them. It's natural for everyone to present strength and hide weakness. You have a chance to make a positive impact on your team as you learn to clarify things as soon as they come up: your teammates might also be afraid to do this, because they also don't see anyone speaking up with non-perfect questions.