Sorry I don't know more about you, I hope something I write will be of some use. You want to be better than others. You are "scared" you will "end up as anothe

Sorry I don't know more about you, I hope something I write will be of some use. You want to be better than others. You are "scared" you will "end up as another human being". Sounds like you've spent your life being scared. Why do you feel superior to those around you? Why do you think You are so special? It sounds like you don't like people. I guess you don't like yourself. How is it that you've never achieved anything? So you "could" do something, but somehow you never have. Get over yourself. What you write sounds so pathetically egotistical. Sounds like you've never loved or been loved. It sounds like you want the ego recognition more than you actually want to help other people. I guess that works to motivate some people. Sounds like you need to learn to love yourself. Then to care about others. I hope as you get older you realize that you aren't so great, you aren't so bad, that being a decent human being that does more good than harm in this world, is no small achievement. Start small. Good luck.