> I had never before reflected on my past, and it has planted the seeds that were necessary to help me understand why I'm so horribly, horribly fucked up at the

> I had never before reflected on my past, and it has planted the seeds that were necessary to help me understand why I'm so horribly, horribly fucked up at the moment... Hmm. I'm a bit surprised by this, I reflect on my past all the time. Too much, probably. I don't think imagining one's idealized future is particularly difficult, but I'm also not sure if it helps much at all with actually reaching said idealized future. It's often just easier and more straightforward to adapt to things that come along the way, and sometimes what you want can drastically change over time, as well. o.O