I'm sorry, but your complaint makes as much sense as telling a coach that it would be easier to get people into fitness if they weren't made to do pushups becau

I'm sorry, but your complaint makes as much sense as telling a coach that it would be easier to get people into fitness if they weren't made to do pushups because pushups are unpleasant. There is no way to acquire complex concepts without acquiring a language that can state those concepts. This takes work and discipline. It requires training. And if you're going to train someone anyways, it would be monumental idiocy to allow them to be trained in a way that won't let them communicate with others. If someone refuses to go through the training, the result is that, like you, they can't learn to be good at math. Just like you won't become physically fit without a certain amount of work. Now the training can be made more interesting. There are ways to improve it. But asking for no training, and instead just have people observe it as a weird thing from the outside? That will no more build the mental pathways that let you do math than watching people weight lift will make you stronger.