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After almost 25 years of taking antidepressants, I had no emotion left whatsoever. I felt dead and wanted to be dead. I wonder how to understand this.

After almost 25 years of taking antidepressants, I had no emotion left whatsoever. I felt dead and wanted to be dead. I wonder how to understand this. If you have no emotions, can you still want something? Why would you want to die? I tend to understand this sentence in a way that means she was suffering. But isn't suffering the same as experiencing negative emotions? Or is this supposed to mean that she had no good emotions left, only painful ones?

JustThrowMeAway 8y ago
Man, all of my comments end up on the bottom of the discussions I try to take part in. This one for example. It raises a question that I truely find interesting. Does nobody else think so? It ranks as the last comment of all. Even below a single line comment "depression is not fun". Depressing.
- egypturnash 8y ago
  Maybe if you stopped posting from ObviousThrowawayAccount47 you'd get more engagement?
eugman 8y ago
Think of a sine wave, with the y-axis representing the positivity/negitivity. A representation of life's ups and downs. I think what she was saying when she said "no emotion left" is that the amplitude of that wave was nearly zero. The wave didn't go up or down much. When she said, "I want to be dead", she's saying that the the average value is down in the negatives.
egypturnash 8y ago
nothing matters there is just endless work, endless things that need to be done to keep yourself alive and why do you bother when the reward is just more endless days like today? nothing to live for, nothing to care about, no energy to do anything but just sit around watching your body slowly fall apart fighting against entropy is constant work and actually giving a shit about anything helps give you a reason to put in that work and by "work" i don't just mean "your day job", I also mean things like "getting out of bed" or "feeding yourself" or "doing anything at all interesting"

JustThrowMeAway 8y ago

Man, all of my comments end up on the bottom of the discussions I try to take part in. This one for example. It raises a question that I truely find interesting. Does nobody else think so? It ranks as the last comment of all. Even below a single line comment "depression is not fun". Depressing.

egypturnash 8y ago
Maybe if you stopped posting from ObviousThrowawayAccount47 you'd get more engagement?

eugman 8y ago

Think of a sine wave, with the y-axis representing the positivity/negitivity. A representation of life's ups and downs. I think what she was saying when she said "no emotion left" is that the amplitude of that wave was nearly zero. The wave didn't go up or down much. When she said, "I want to be dead", she's saying that the the average value is down in the negatives.

egypturnash 8y ago

nothing matters there is just endless work, endless things that need to be done to keep yourself alive and why do you bother when the reward is just more endless days like today? nothing to live for, nothing to care about, no energy to do anything but just sit around watching your body slowly fall apart fighting against entropy is constant work and actually giving a shit about anything helps give you a reason to put in that work and by "work" i don't just mean "your day job", I also mean things like "getting out of bed" or "feeding yourself" or "doing anything at all interesting"