My first reaction is curiosity, the second is a sort of flinching at the probable reaction of haters (whose reactions I've internalized by this point) to the id

My first reaction is curiosity, the second is a sort of flinching at the probable reaction of haters (whose reactions I've internalized by this point) to the idea that it matters what month I write things in, and the third is that I really should work harder. Especially in June.