> But I'm probably quite far from a 'real' hacker who enjoys coding so much, they do it in their free time as well. This is fine when you get to a certain leve

> But I'm probably quite far from a 'real' hacker who enjoys coding so much, they do it in their free time as well. This is fine when you get to a certain level. You don't sound to be at that level yet. If you can support yourself there, fine, minimize your expenses. If not, get back to your own region for 6 months - 1 year while you level up on your development skills and get a remote job locked in or have some savings. It's hard to learn while under stress, and anything in life has a certain amount of luck to it. Additionally, some of the best developers have trouble finding remote gigs because they don't know how to market themselves. Sounds like you a lacking a little of both so don't beat yourself up, but level up in both areas. Good luck.