you lack motivation. i felt exactly like this for a long time. It even made me consider that i was ill, and i whent to the doctors to have my blood examined etc

you lack motivation. i felt exactly like this for a long time. It even made me consider that i was ill, and i whent to the doctors to have my blood examined etc. Only when i found my motivation again years after i realised there was nothing physically wrong with me, and all these symptoms were simply a reflection of my mind getting into my body. it's not an easy task to find what motivates you. Self-reflection is key, and it can be a painful road to discover yourself and accept yourself. My advise is to drop the idea of starting 'new'. this is an impossible idea people have. Since you learn and experience throughout your life, and these lessons should not be discarded. Ask yourself many questions, what do i like, why do i like this, and get to know yourself more. That way you will find what motivates you, which will help you find and decide on a nice path in life. all the best, and remember this is only too human to feel like this, not many people go through life without having a time in their life feeling lost or without a clear goal. Recognising this in yourself is the frist step which you have already made.