Quit giving your periods of hypomania to other people and spend it in service of the side of yourself you hate most. Focus on MRR in the company of you. Budget

Quit giving your periods of hypomania to other people and spend it in service of the side of yourself you hate most. Focus on MRR in the company of you. Budget so your low's can live off the worst case scenario of your highs and make it happen, knowing yourself wholly. Seems like you stopped living for the hypomania and accepted 'crazy' without the smooth descent to that point that allows you to love all sides of yourself. Not a doctor.