Having been surrounded by people with different levels of depression my entire life (as well as my own, and my mother's BP), I just want to suggest that your si

Having been surrounded by people with different levels of depression my entire life (as well as my own, and my mother's BP), I just want to suggest that your situation isn't as written in stone as it seems. Perhaps you're already doing this, but if not, I'd highly suggest you find someone to speak to long-term, and also find someone to help you manage these feelings with medication. It does make a difference.