If your state is not where you want it to be then you have to change it somehow. There are many ways to do it, but maybe consider taking a break from work and d

If your state is not where you want it to be then you have to change it somehow. There are many ways to do it, but maybe consider taking a break from work and doing something else if you can afford it. Volunteer somewhere, help someone else out if you are in a position to do so. If you think it's medical/clinical then seek professional help. There are many buddhist/christian/hindu/etc. retreat centers around the world, consider a stay there for a few days and keep an open mind, you may find something there. It's not much different then a mental hospital except they won't force you to take meds. Many times for smart/technical folks, the problem is less psychochemical and more intellectual/philosophical in nature. All the best, hope you find the help/motivation you need..