As others have stated, the biggest thing is to stop beating yourself up - stop calling yourself damaged. Also, you need to start exercising - it is the only th

As others have stated, the biggest thing is to stop beating yourself up - stop calling yourself damaged. Also, you need to start exercising - it is the only thing for me personally that will keep "the darkness" at bay. The research and neurobiology behind exercise being an effective modulator of mood is all solid. Further, I recommend you listen to Jocko Podcast [1] - by Jocko Willink, a retired Navy SEAL commander, he does some great interviews with guys like Col. Bill Reeder, who spent several years in a POW camp. Think about guys like John Mccain, who spent 6 years being tortured, neglected and beaten day in and day out -- and it really starts to put things in perspective, because he put ALL of that trauma aside and went on to lead a fairly remarkable career, and raise a family etc. 1 - http://jockopodcast.com/2017/02/22/63-through-the-valley-my-captivity-in-vietnam-with-colonel-william-reeder-us-army-pilot-vietnam-pow/ http://jockopodcast.com/2017/02/22/63-through-the-valley-my-...