I've tried chasing big goals and I've tried avoiding everything through escapism. Turns out that it doesn't matter much what I try, I eventually just do what I

I've tried chasing big goals and I've tried avoiding everything through escapism. Turns out that it doesn't matter much what I try, I eventually just do what I do. Thankfully, the trend line is positive. Once I figured that out and learned to trust it, I stopped thinking in terms of big conscious motivations and instead just started looking at the unconscious roadblocks that were in front of me. If something was getting in the way of where I seemed to be going, or if I noticed myself charting weird paths around some thing in avoidance, I'd start looking closer at why and gradually free myself of the hinderance. There are plenty more such blocks for me to find and work through, but this method feels more balanced and more effective than any motivation-centered paradigm ever seemed to.