Impostor Syndrome. I spent a bunch of my childhood in borderline abusive situations being told I was useless or stupid. I also spent much of my childhood on th

Impostor Syndrome. I spent a bunch of my childhood in borderline abusive situations being told I was useless or stupid. I also spent much of my childhood on the outside looking in, as the fat weird kid. Like you, further complimenting this is being completely self taught, so I'm certain that I'm less valued than peers with a formal degree, and on some level I feel looked down upon by those with a degree. The more accolades I get, the more certain that its all gonna disappear one day, and I'm going to wake up poor again working a dead end job, like I was at 18.