I find it very difficult to care about the shit that needs shoveling every day in the bowels of a tech company (or really anywhere in corporate America). I reme

I find it very difficult to care about the shit that needs shoveling every day in the bowels of a tech company (or really anywhere in corporate America). I remember when I used to be able to convince myself of the value of what my employer was doing and my contribution to that. Not only all that, but there is so much about tech companies now that I find distasteful. The underplayed arrogance of engineers, the cliquishness of who gets to make decisions and who gets the good work, being on a team starving for resources while others get every blessing available, the pervasive self-serious belief that we are changing the world instead of making a bit of lucre (nothing wrong with that really, but call it what it is). I don't have any drive for any of it. I just want to read and think about things that are interesting to me. I'm hoping I can cash out and stop the madness, but as we all know, options are lottery tickets until they aren't.