I've been picking my beard every since I was a teenager. I do it when I'm thinking about a coding problem so my desk is full of little hairs at the end of the d

I've been picking my beard every since I was a teenager. I do it when I'm thinking about a coding problem so my desk is full of little hairs at the end of the day. I also did it during driving long distances and when watching television. I think it's related to stress and when I have nothing to do with my hands. This is not happening when being active outside in nature. I've noticed that I'v actually started touching and searching for hairs in my beard while thinking about this next sentence... When I search for a hair with my fingers and found one I can find that particular hair without looking, I know what it feels like, where it is and it has to come out. I keep picking until it's gone. Sometimes I throw it away, sometimes I put the hair softly against my lips, the lips are very sensitive and able to feel the shape of a single hair. Shaving helps for a bit, but a couple days later it's the worst because all the hairs have the perfect length... Just long enough to find, just short enough so it's a challenge to grab them. Sometimes I close my eyes to really focus on the feeling of the fingers and concentrate on grabbing that hair. Sometimes I use both hands, one to grab the skin and make the hair go up a little bit so it's easier to grab. My partner gets mad on me when I do it, but none of my colleagues ever said anything about but I'm sure they noticed. It's definitely a disorder and very hard to stop by yourself. While thinking of a closing remark I picked another hair, I guess that speaks for itself.