I might be putting words into the op's mouth but, what I think the they were trying to say that this is what their life looked like right before experiencing a

I might be putting words into the op's mouth but, what I think the they were trying to say that this is what their life looked like right before experiencing a severe panic attack. So if you find yourself making decisions like this, you might be on a path that doesn't end well. I don't think the shaming was entirely necessary.