My mental health has been suffering for the past couple of years for a variety of fairly definable reasons, but I actually had my first one last night. It was t

My mental health has been suffering for the past couple of years for a variety of fairly definable reasons, but I actually had my first one last night. It was triggered so I kind of knew what was going on, but I really wasn't prepared for the smack of adrenaline and the half hour cooling down period of just trying to stop shaking and lose the desire to cry. Luckily it was not debilitating, and happened in the car five minutes from home, so I could get to a sofa and work through it; it also helped that I had somewhere to be with friends that was in no way connected to my triggers and so I could use that as a useful distraction. I think the scariest thing for me, now, is that now I have to add panic/anxiety attacks to my understanding of my own condition, which up until now has been either some very black (but ultimately rational) periods of suffering, or just general low mood to the point where I have dismissed the idea of medication. But this is now probably a game-changer for me.