The few times I've tried it I experienced paranoia lasting several hours, and when I became aware of it I additionally experienced anxiety because I couldn't te

The few times I've tried it I experienced paranoia lasting several hours, and when I became aware of it I additionally experienced anxiety because I couldn't tell whether I was voicing these thoughts about people around me or keeping them inside my mind. I would then proceed to develop violent scenarios in which I had to attack and fight the people who were making me feel paranoid; the anxiety increased because I suspected they could hear me muttering such thoughts, so I was trying to clamp my mouth shut, deliberately painfully so I could remain aware of it being shut. Last time, I thought I was being very clever and quick to see all these paranoid connections, but when I happened to pay attention to a clock I realized that each sentence/proposition took me about 2 minutes to "think", examine word by word, and self-approvingly re-think. Further, when someone was speaking near me or to me, I felt that I could catch at best one word per sentence; relatedly, their motions appeared disjointed, jumping from position to position in space, a hand would be open then closed without intermediary steps. So, no thanks.