This sounds like an obsession that is adversely affecting your life. If you had a painful tooth that was affecting your ability to relax, you'd see a dentist. I

This sounds like an obsession that is adversely affecting your life. If you had a painful tooth that was affecting your ability to relax, you'd see a dentist. If you had a leg injury that was affecting your life, you'd see a medical professional. Do the same for this. Looking after your mental health is simply a sensible thing to do.