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Ask HN: Mid 20s, reached goals and still unhappy

• jstewartmobile 8y ago
  That is what agency tastes like to just about everyone who is being honest. Power through it. Everything else is McDonalds in comparison.
  • ta28838 8y ago
    Hey, thanks for your comment. As I am no native speaker, I don't understand your comment. Can you explain a bit better?
    • jstewartmobile 8y ago
      This is what most people feel when confronted with a new blank canvas. If you retreat, embark on a different journey, and succeed, you will end up staring into the same abyss--just from a different angle.
• auslegung 8y ago
  Feel free to reach out to me, all my contact info is in my profile. I’ve had a similar experience recently, I’m a software engineer, plus I have experience in counseling/life coaching.
• tgb29 8y ago
  Our circumstances are different, but I'm going through a similar phase, and the last few weeks I've thought mostly on the idea of self-motivation. I'm asking myself what does this really mean and what makes it sustainable? Seeing that you're doing this too reassures me, and it shows me that you've also identified the issue. The question I'm asking today is: how do I define my purpose in life? It may be that your true goals in life are different than the ones you set when you were 20. You're not a stupid idiot by any means, and it seems like if wanted to coast the rest of your life you're setup to do so. Be proud of getting to this point because most never will. But if you're looking for deeper fulfillment, you'll need to either set new goals or redefine the purpose for the next phase of your life. My hypothesis is that when I resolve my purpose, I'll have stronger incentives for self-motivation. Defining purpose is hard and it's interwoven with your world view, thoughts on religion, death, etc., but you have to start somewhere.
  • ta28838 8y ago
    The "purpose of life" question is maybe a bit too deep for me, but in general I agree with this kind of questions. It's like I do not have a challenge anymore because, for whatever reason, everything I'm doing seems to turn out well even without me putting much effort into it. I'm just lucky in this regard I think which caused me to lose my self motivation very deeply. I can also observe this very often in other aspects of life: I find a new technology, buy stuff for it and when the stuff arrives at home to start playing around with it, I do not even open the package because in the end I'm thinking "not worth it to waste time on"... which actually ends up in really wasting time by just sitting on the couch and doing nothing. This exact same feeling I have when I have an idea for a new project but then I don't even start it. It goes that far that even start to watch a new good movie, which was one of my biggest hobbies once, seems to be a too big barrier for me. My life goals once were to have a family, a nice house and a healthy life. They are still there too, but somehow the "I need to do new things all the time" added up to the list, and this is contrary to the family and house goal. Maybe this confuses me, driving myself into two different directions at the same time? The "start somewhere" is probably actually the question. Where?
    • tgb29 8y ago
• ta28838 8y ago
  (just adding as a comment because the original text was too long) Maybe I reached my goals too quick and without much hassle at all and therefore can't really value what I have. Changing my life circumstances again would probably not solve it. I always loved and needed to do new things. If I would quit now, I feel like I would lose all credibility. I mean, who wants to hire someone who even leaves his own company only because he is not happy? If there would be at least a reason... But there isn't. Even financials are working fine. Sorry. Just spitting out what is in my head, unsorted and unstructured. I'm not even sure what I'm asking for with this post. What's wrong with me?
  • haburka 8y ago
    There’s nothing wrong with you. People often feel terribly depressed when they meet their decade long goals. This is because striving is so satisfying and full of novelty. Basically, the top of the mountain is beautiful but it’s also lonely. It also means you have to start walking down the mountain or find another goal in life. I assure you, there are aspects of your life that you could improve and refine still, but you focused on other aspects for so long. Try to find something that you want to achieve that’s not work related - maybe run a marathon. That might help refresh yourself.
• jacobwilliamroy 8y ago
  > It should be the other way around > I really think I'm just a stupid idiot > I cannot motivate myself > If there would be at least a reason... but there isn't I very recently had to pass through a similar ordeal. Mine lasted for a very long time and eventually evolved into full-on self-sabotage. I would go through cycles where I would work very hard to establish an easy status-quo, just to suddenly become completely uninterested and let everything fall apart. It was really hard for me to figure out how to get out of the rut-cycle, and the path I took was very specific to who I am and where I came from. I can't give you step-by-step instructions, but I can outline the general idea and approach that got me started down the right path. I'm about to get really psuedo-scientifical. Buckle up. You should forget all this business about what you think you should be feeling. Here is how (I believe) human experiences work: Step 1: you experience real-world stimuli (the touch of a significant other; the sound of waves crashing) Step 2: you have feelings Step 3: you have thoughts You cannot control your feelings by simply thinking "I ought to feel happy" or "Stuff makes me happy and I have stuff; therefore I am happy." If your feelings are truly a barrier to your work, then you need to examine them. Most importantly you need to acknowledge them without shame or judgement. If you're having some emotional response which does not line up with how you think you should feel, you need to let go of how you think you should feel and just accept your feeling. Don't call it "good" or "bad", just let it happen. Observe your feelings in a neutral manner. That means you shouldn't wish to dispel or possess any emotions which you may or may not have. Just pay attention to them when they pop-up. Try to understand what real-world stimuli is triggering your emotions. Very often our emotional triggers stem from childhood. If you pay attention, you'll notice that a lot of people seek to mate with men or women who resemble their parents; recreating childhood memories is a very common pattern of unconscious behavior. The key thing is to allow your mind to be a safe space. Your thoughts and feelings are completely private. No one is going to judge or hurt you for having them, so it's completely safe to just notice each and every one - especially the unwanted ones. I assure you, acknowledging your unwanted thoughts and feelings will not cause you to act on them. Based on what I've seen, I'd say the opposite is true: If you try to suppress unwanted thoughts or feelings you will unconsciously fulfill them in your real life.
• badpun 8y ago
  Being a CTO (and doing it right) is extremely hard and draining work. I think only a specific kind of personality can stomach it, let alone enjoy it.
• thecupisblue 8y ago
  What do you do except write code?