Regardless of whether OP is good at programming, it sounds like he might not enjoy it. To OP: you spent a couple years in college and got yourself a CS degree.

Regardless of whether OP is good at programming, it sounds like he might not enjoy it. To OP: you spent a couple years in college and got yourself a CS degree. Congrats. It is not an obligation to spend the rest of your life doing something you dislike. You might try a software job for a year to see how you like it, or maybe it's already time to change direction. Do you already have something else in mind you'd like to do?