I am in no way an expert on these things. But it could be the case that you have anxiety. The 'weed' takes it away and allows you to program. Maybe you could t

I am in no way an expert on these things. But it could be the case that you have anxiety. The 'weed' takes it away and allows you to program. Maybe you could try to lower your coffee consumption and drink relaxing teas instead. You could also take a few days off work and try to figure things out. What is your heart rate like? How much do you sleep? How many cups of coffee do you drink in a day? If you're heart rate is constantly up and you sleep very little (4-6 hours) and you drink more than 4 cups of coffee a day, my opinion would be that you're suffering from anxiety. If you treat the symptoms (without weed ofc :) ), the underlying physical stress might go away and you'll notice that you can program whilst not being under the influence. Best of luck