It sounds like you're not very satisfied with how your coding practice is going. If you have the resources, I would definitely recommend trying to find a tutor

It sounds like you're not very satisfied with how your coding practice is going. If you have the resources, I would definitely recommend trying to find a tutor to do 1-on-1 sessions with. I've seen a lot of the behaviors you mention in people I've tutored. This is especially relevant if you think your disability is affecting the quality of your practice. You made need to engage in different strategies to get the most out of practice. (or to manage the kinds of problems you're working on). It's possible that you would have a lot of difficulty with a career in programming, but I wouldn't even consider that until a skilled tutor or two feel that way.