While there is some good advice here, HN is an awful venue to ask this sort of stuff. Comparing yourself to anybody here is toxic. You never get a full picture

While there is some good advice here, HN is an awful venue to ask this sort of stuff. Comparing yourself to anybody here is toxic. You never get a full picture and if you're already in the mindset that you're a failure, the guys in here who only talk about themselves in a positive way will only reinforce that. You need to look after yourself. Some ruts are too deep to climb out of without help. Find a psych{ologist,iatrist} and talk this through, take the medication they recommend (if any) and get well. It really can be that easy. Then you can start to appreciate life, not the shit that people extol on here about investing and benchmarking and maximising pay. That will only ever lead you back to feeling you never have enough. FWIW I found cycling and woodworking. And then a baby girl. I'm much clearer what life is all about now.