> I haven't really managed to do anything (the same problem I had when I was working for other companies) > I haven't managed to release any software or do any

> I haven't really managed to do anything (the same problem I had when I was working for other companies) > I haven't managed to release any software or do any consulting First, don't seriously think of suicide helping anything. You leave a wake. Second, based on what I quoted above, I'm wondering.. Why? Why have you done anything? Are you preoccupied? (Relationship, socially, etc). Do you have ADHD? If it's something that can be fixed/treated then focus on that. If it's just a reality, find ways to work around it or consider other options. I must say, this sounds incredibly familiar and the way I've always seen it played out is the person realized that "knowledge work" just wasn't for them. For some reason, some people aren't wired to sit at a computer and crank out work. Their minds wonder, productivity falls, depression sets in, they feel like a cubically caged animal, etc. I know people that drop out of college, or don't mesh with the post college corporate world, and albeit a few years later they have pivoted to start a commercial/residential service business. Landscaper, plumbing, HVAC, etc. These all can pay well (in the US) and are entrepreneurial if that's what you're after. Not saying this is right for you - just examples I have seen other people go through. So, my recommendation is you do some soul searching. If you're not writing code, and have a history of being unproductive at that, don't start/build/focus on a software consulting company. It will fail or make you incredibly unhappy. It sounds like both are happening right now. Also, maybe talk with a life coach. I think you need to explore some options and be realistic with yourself, they can help you with this. Best of luck.