If you frequently stop contacting people and are remorseful but can't get yourself to take action (it sounds like you have this issue) and have had problems "es

If you frequently stop contacting people and are remorseful but can't get yourself to take action (it sounds like you have this issue) and have had problems "escaping" other situations (thinking of suicide or just leaving the country, etc.); try to reframe your situation. There's a couple of ways to think about this: 1. What's the worst thing that could happen to you if you disappoint someone?...really, there's not much. Also, worse-case scenario to anything in life is you get punished with jail and/or fines. You are in control of your destiny in these cases. Don't think that there's no way out...there's always a way out. You sound like someone that likes challenges - think of this as a challenge that you have to solve. In the end; for what you have invested, what's another $5k (for a good accountant and/or house-keeping of documents) if it solves your headaches and you can stay in Japan? Try to find a mentor or someone who has been in similar situations to you. The "escape problems" that you suffer from are caused by anxiety and/or depression. It will take a while to train your brain to think differently and come to recognize these situations as they happen. Try to do a bit of retrospective analysis of how you got to your current predicament and what you could've done differently. This will help you avoid similar pitfalls in the future. Try to plan your days out, then your weeks, then even months or years. This will help you prepare for issues that might arise and prevent new problems from creeping in. Make sure you make time for introspective analysis on a daily basis...and try not to put off anything on your "to-do" list for longer than a day or two. You'll feel much better for it. Lastly, exercise and meditation will help you a lot. Good luck and know you're not alone in these problems!