There's lots of great advice in this thread, but much of it is not direct enough for someone suffering from depression and anxiety, which you obviously are. I h

There's lots of great advice in this thread, but much of it is not direct enough for someone suffering from depression and anxiety, which you obviously are. I have struggled with it on-and-off my entire adult life. What you need right now are clear simple marching orders that you can follow. 1. You are in no position to run a business right now, and in no position to live alone in a foreign country without extensive support from family and loved ones. 2. How your actions will reflect on other foreigners is totally irrelevant to your situation. Your fixation with this is a symptom of anxiety. Right now you believe you are be watched and judged. In reality, one week after you leave nobody there will remember you or care. You are free. 3. Tell your accountant to wind down your business immediately. Do not equivocate or listen to arguments from him. If you need help, someone on this thread who is familiar with Japanese language and customs will surely advocate on your behalf. 3. Find friends, relatives, or loved-ones that you can lean on for support and GO HOME now. You can always come back when you are better. This is not a permanent decision, you are just getting back on your feet. 4. Get professional help as soon as you get back. When evaluating who to stay with, ask yourself this "will they make me seek help and hold me accountable to keep getting help" That's the friend/family member you need right now. Once your steady and on your feet again. You can start to re-build your life. Good luck and godspeed. Not many people know what you're up against, but I do. You can do this.