Man, I've been there. It seems your fundamental challenge is you aren't getting things done. If you can't accomplish things, this indicates you are missing cri

Man, I've been there. It seems your fundamental challenge is you aren't getting things done. If you can't accomplish things, this indicates you are missing critical, learnable skills that can change your life for the better. Don't worry so much about the immediate details of your situation and take steps to address your ability to accomplish what you set out to do. Perhaps you have untreated ADHD or mild depression. Perhaps you don't actually enjoy coding, but just think you do. Or if not, very likely you have counterproductive habits, which will take time to change but luckily there are fantastic resources out there. I would recommend you read all of these: How to Fail at Almost Everything and Still Win Big - Scott Adams The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People - Steven Covey 12 Rules For Life - Jordan Peterson The War Of Art - Steven Pressfield So Good They Can't Ignore You - Cal Newport and if those don't help, you might have ADHD: Driven to Distraction - Edward M. Hallowell Meanwhile, make as much human connection as feasible, so you remember there's more to life than your career. Changing how you operate to be more effective and aligned with your goals isn't an overnight project, but it is totally possible and you will get there. -- edited for grammar and formatting