First off get some help/guidance. Call a suicide hotline, even one in the US if you are considering it. The answer to this isn't suicide or fleeing the countr

First off get some help/guidance. Call a suicide hotline, even one in the US if you are considering it. The answer to this isn't suicide or fleeing the country. Consider winding down the company and getting out the funds you can. Close it properly to avoid any future tax issues. Reach out to patio11 (Patrick McKenzie) he's born in the US lives in Japan. He's commenting here. Try to connect with him privately. He can probably help you get to an english speaking accountant. Occupy your mind/time with positive things, exercise, communicate with friends and family, see the sites locally. Do things you enjoy. As far as staying in Japan, talk to patio11 about that. Business/Job sounds like you want to have your own business. It's tough staying motivated working for a company or having your own. Get some advice on winding down your company, getting your money out of it and staying in Japan. You'll feel better once those are sorted out. Would it be possible for you to move back to the US close to friends and family to reset and plan your next move? It's hard creating your own company and it's hard wanting to create your own company while you're working for someone else. Check out Rob's stair step process on StartUpsForTheRestOfUs.com. Rob's wife might be able to help you out too: https://zenfounder.com/consulting/one-on-one-consulting/ https://zenfounder.com/consulting/one-on-one-consulting/ Check out these: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CDXJ6bMkMY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0CDXJ6bMkMY http://www.startupsfortherestofus.com/archives http://www.startupsfortherestofus.com/archives I think patio11 should be your first go to on this. He should have lots of relevant advice. Good luck, take care of yourself.