I feel like points 1 + 2/3 are in pretty stark contradiction to each other, honestly speaking. Work is a pretty important part of life (if one must work that is

I feel like points 1 + 2/3 are in pretty stark contradiction to each other, honestly speaking. Work is a pretty important part of life (if one must work that is). It's clear that you're finding the work culture there dispiriting and uncongenial. If I were you I'd get my money out and take an extended trip home (if that is possible for you). You're worrying about other people at a time when you need more care than they do - after all "they" are a pure abstraction let's face it. To put it simply: Put on your own oxygen mask first.