I really don't want to be asked if I'm having suicidal thoughts. Ever. By anyone. If I say yes, someone might try to "help" me by having me confined to a psychi

I really don't want to be asked if I'm having suicidal thoughts. Ever. By anyone. If I say yes, someone might try to "help" me by having me confined to a psychiatric hospital. Or worse. Having to lie about it is unpleasant. I have suicidal thoughts regularly, but I am not going to act on them. From most objective standards, my life is generally good. I've never had problems getting dates - at least once I got the courage to try, though long term relationships are hard. I have a job I like and find fulfilling. I'm well on my way to having "fuck you money". Still depressed. Since childhood (25+ years) I've been taking antidepressants. Have changed them a few times, though not for many years. They allow me to be mostly functional most of the time. Switching now might put me in a hole I can't get myself out of. Talk therapy has never really helped me. I don't really have any hope left of ever not being depressed. I've thought about trying psychedelics or ketimine therapy, but can't really find the motivation to do anything. Fuck depression.