I'm at a week-long point of one of the harder depression episodes I've ever had. It came from running out and thus taking a break from my adhd meds. A week ago

I'm at a week-long point of one of the harder depression episodes I've ever had. It came from running out and thus taking a break from my adhd meds. A week ago, I was worried about my health, because I loved life and wanted to live it to the fullest. The last 3-4 days has been 14 hour sleep sessions, lack of will to get up and out, and a profound sadness about my place in life. I had to keep talking myself out of saying I didn't want to be alive anymore last night; it was uncontrollable despair accompanied by insomnia. Went to my shrink today who gave me a welbutrin script so I'm hoping that works out for me. My saving grace in all this is how I've come to externalize the prolonged feeling of down-ness. I talked to a good friend about it, who proceeded to tell me how it was just my state of mind and that "Its literally the way you look at a situation". Not only is that patronizing, it tries to erase the agony of my experiences. I've experimented with mdma, psychs (lsd, dmt, shrooms), weed, ket, none of it has sustained any sort of cure. The problems just come right back.