>the constant mental treadmill that comes with working in most IT department I think: >my honeymoon with computers and IT seems to be over should read: >my ho

>the constant mental treadmill that comes with working in most IT department I think: >my honeymoon with computers and IT seems to be over should read: >my honeymoon with IT seems to be over Be careful not to confound a distaste with IT with a distaste for computing in general. Thinking about negatives in a global terms rather than a specific terms is one the key depressive thought patterns. Thinking about a negative as a global\general state is highly destructive: I did bad on this test, because I suck at studying\am dumb. The end result is learned helplessness. Thinking about a negative as a specific event allows you to view problems as solvable: I did bad on this test, but it was because I didn't study or prepare enough in this specific incident. The end result is positive, you will study more in the future. From your post it is clear you are getting stuck in the former thought pattern, I wish you the best of luck getting out of it.