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Recovery is just another step in the process. You don't forget what it's like to start to suffocate in the abyss. You don't forget what it's like to know that
by weego 8y ago
Recovery is just another step in the process.
You don't forget what it's like to start to suffocate in the abyss.
You don't forget what it's like to know that dying is easier than any other option available to you and that it's a blink of an eye away.
It scars you
- idbehold 8y agoOccasionally Fugazi's "I'm So Tired" will come on and I am instantly reminded of the worst parts of my depression. It's been years and years since I was that severely depressed, but that feeling can overwhelm me in an instant when I listen to that song. Just remembering the terrible place I was in brings tears to my eyes because I know how close I got to never experiencing all the joy in my life that came afterward.
- mikec3010 8y agoI had a similar experience when driving by the house I lived in when I was at my worst. It was a dark subtle dread unique to that experience. It made me come to realize just how badly I was and how far I have come
- 294 8y agoI haven't forgotten what it's like to know that dying is better than any other available option, and yet undoable. We equate openly suicidal people to attention seekers because they talk about it without doing it. Facing that disbelief was one of the things that scarred me the most.