I used to be like that, but, life is too short to allow embarrassment to paralyze you. If you go through it often enough, you develop a sort of numbness to it.

I used to be like that, but, life is too short to allow embarrassment to paralyze you. If you go through it often enough, you develop a sort of numbness to it. I'm sure I can still embarrass myself, but I try not to dwell in that micro blackhole. PTSD has taught me that if you are constantly focused on those patterns, you will see them in everything. So you might wind up feeling like you are embarrassing yourself constantly even though external reality has no validation mechanic to prove this. Are people saying you are embarrassing? And should you care, if they do think this? That judgement is their own burden. You can keep wondering, but to me that's the same as thinking everything is traumatic because the reality of the present is 'connected' to the memory of the past. All those links, you can keep stepping back into them until you feel like, "I am reliving this again", but, that happens frequently enough and I dunno. Labeling things stupid just means you have less tools to work with when a stupid thing might actually be the more smart thing to work with. Doesn't mean you won't make mistakes. As far as intelligence is concerned, I'm not sure any human is intelligent enough to be it while knowing what it is.