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The concept of 'baked in'. I sort of find doing stuff with words fun, sometimes. It's a creative endeavor, but also fairly rigorous. Otherwise, stare off into

The concept of 'baked in'. I sort of find doing stuff with words fun, sometimes. It's a creative endeavor, but also fairly rigorous. Otherwise, stare off into space, and wonder if the terrible things I don't want to happen have happened yet. Food, experiences, aesthetics, pleasure, hedonism. I study Zen quite a bit. I don't find it fun. It's just a way to reveal truths to others because,they can't be revealed directly and accepted at face value, for some. Words are memes. Ideas are baked in. Connections dance in patterns. Math and logic form the foundation. Mind tests for correctness. Self, universe, theory. Universe is infinite, self knowledge - finite (or is it?). Theory unites with self, universe serves as reality check. Theory united with self, is this equivalent to the universe? What is mind? The experience of everything you've ever experienced, collapsing in on itself. https://youtu.be/1PT90dAA49Q https://youtu.be/1PT90dAA49Q What happens after that? That, I find interesting. Post modernism, maybe. Where are the new words, new theories, new patterns? Dance on top of all that exists.

stcredzero 8y ago
The experience of everything you've ever experienced, collapsing in on itself. I usually experience paroxysms of guilt from the embarrassment of everything stupid I've ever done. https://proxy.duckduckgo.com/iur/?f=1&image_host=http%3A%2F%2Feclecticemily.files.wordpress.com%2F2008%2F06%2F1120-linus.jpg&u=https://eclecticemily.files.wordpress.com/2008/06/1120-linus.jpg https://proxy.duckduckgo.com/iur/?f=1&image_host=http%3A%2F%... What happens after that? That, I find interesting. Post modernism, maybe. Well, if there is a new wave of reason, then a backlash of unreason is not unexpected. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwZ651i5vls https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwZ651i5vls
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- s-shellfish 8y ago
  I used to be like that, but, life is too short to allow embarrassment to paralyze you. If you go through it often enough, you develop a sort of numbness to it. I'm sure I can still embarrass myself, but I try not to dwell in that micro blackhole. PTSD has taught me that if you are constantly focused on those patterns, you will see them in everything. So you might wind up feeling like you are embarrassing yourself constantly even though external reality has no validation mechanic to prove this. Are people saying you are embarrassing? And should you care, if they do think this? That judgement is their own burden. You can keep wondering, but to me that's the same as thinking everything is traumatic because the reality of the present is 'connected' to the memory of the past. All those links, you can keep stepping back into them until you feel like, "I am reliving this again", but, that happens frequently enough and I dunno. Labeling things stupid just means you have less tools to work with when a stupid thing might actually be the more smart thing to work with. Doesn't mean you won't make mistakes. As far as intelligence is concerned, I'm not sure any human is intelligent enough to be it while knowing what it is.

stcredzero 8y ago

The experience of everything you've ever experienced, collapsing in on itself. I usually experience paroxysms of guilt from the embarrassment of everything stupid I've ever done. https://proxy.duckduckgo.com/iur/?f=1&image_host=http%3A%2F%2Feclecticemily.files.wordpress.com%2F2008%2F06%2F1120-linus.jpg&u=https://eclecticemily.files.wordpress.com/2008/06/1120-linus.jpg https://proxy.duckduckgo.com/iur/?f=1&image_host=http%3A%2F%... What happens after that? That, I find interesting. Post modernism, maybe. Well, if there is a new wave of reason, then a backlash of unreason is not unexpected. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwZ651i5vls https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwZ651i5vls

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s-shellfish 8y ago
I used to be like that, but, life is too short to allow embarrassment to paralyze you. If you go through it often enough, you develop a sort of numbness to it. I'm sure I can still embarrass myself, but I try not to dwell in that micro blackhole. PTSD has taught me that if you are constantly focused on those patterns, you will see them in everything. So you might wind up feeling like you are embarrassing yourself constantly even though external reality has no validation mechanic to prove this. Are people saying you are embarrassing? And should you care, if they do think this? That judgement is their own burden. You can keep wondering, but to me that's the same as thinking everything is traumatic because the reality of the present is 'connected' to the memory of the past. All those links, you can keep stepping back into them until you feel like, "I am reliving this again", but, that happens frequently enough and I dunno. Labeling things stupid just means you have less tools to work with when a stupid thing might actually be the more smart thing to work with. Doesn't mean you won't make mistakes. As far as intelligence is concerned, I'm not sure any human is intelligent enough to be it while knowing what it is.