When I was younger I was into noble pursuits. I loved to study programming and would talk about ways I would want to help the world with my future skills. That

When I was younger I was into noble pursuits. I loved to study programming and would talk about ways I would want to help the world with my future skills. That's all gone now... At some point I started to get darker and more cynical, and began to see technology not as a way to improve the world, but rather as a way to take what is mine. It started as a few disappointments here and there, then into short bouts of anger, then expanding into a constant simmering rage. Don't know if I'll ever recover. What happened...